Too many recent changes are getting to me ...
i am losing my sanity ...
Everyday i put on a facade to my closest one ...
Talking about it helps but everything reamains unsolved ...
For 8 year she was here ...
and now she is gone ...
An environment i was used to..
all gone in flash ...
now everyday i face the unknown...
One by one the people are gone ...
i love the remaining but its not enough ...
Little by little i watch him grow...
Than without my knowing he is gone...
Yeah i am being overly dramatic ...
but thats basically how i feel ...
How could this happen to me ...<--- (cliche i know)
Life suck ... trust me i know ...
What can i say about it ...
Well JC life is tiring ...
and the homework sucks big time ...
they are difficult to do ...
We have to do our own research
and there is no textbook ...
this definitely needs some getting use to ...
the people ?
Well most of them are nice and awesomely friendly but ...
i am still confused over certain stuff ...
i just don't know what to do about it ...
i tried so many times to not let it affect me ...
but it just keeps coming back to haunt me ...
haix ... i need some serious help ...
What do they want with me ???
Seriously ... a major change can happen at the speed of thought ...
five minutes before this i wanted to do an entry that involved a huge amount of bitching ...
i really wanted to vent all my pent up anger ...
swear and curse like there was no tomorrow...
insult all the people that i felt did me wrong ...
But than i saw this phrase on television ...
and everything changed ...
my perfectly planned rant about how annoying and bitchy some people can be ...
All gone ... vanished at that very second ...
I am only human ... he is only human ...
and humans make mistakes...
i ain't trying to act like some saint nor do i feel like forgiving him anytime soon
but i don't think i am going to do anything ...
just stick around and see how things go...
call me a coward or say i am gutless...
but i really don't see a point in retaliating ...
as long as nobody has to suffer the same thing it is all good...
i know is sound like some "angelic saint"...
but i am so fucking not ...
i am just so sick of fighting and letting him affect ...
i just wanna get on with life ...
What does she want ...
whatever i am giving up...
Day1: i noticed...
Day2: Glance exchanged
Day3: Invitation and dance
Day4:Talks and smiles
Day5: Information exchange
Day6: Lies
Day7:
Hurt...
Day1:
Ok the beggining was kinda boring ...
Lots of talks and boring introductory lectures...
And there was sever lack in enthusiasm ...
But the J2 senior rocks...WooHoo Go OGLs ...
Love to Cheryl, Li Yi and Joan ...
Had a savenger hunt ...
though we didn't win it was AWESOME and FUN...
Day2:
Mass Dance!
My favourite ...
i love to dance ... mass dance rulez...
There were 3 song but i only reconize one and the song is...
Yeah by usher... WooHoo
And than there was couple dance ...
there's more juicey stuff about it but i ain't gonna say ...
but couple dance rock and was damn fun ...
my partner was... ... ... ...
*Drum roll*
HanLin... LOL
Day 3:
Wet games... WooHoo...
i had to crawl in the mud...
pass cups of dirty water around...
get soaked in the rain and..
answer maths question ofr a game of dog and bone ...
But the best part was the water bomb War ...
It was awesome ...
After the games i hose myself down and
stayed back to practice for the OG night ...
Day4:
CCA talk and the chance to join the CCA we want ...
I joined ODAC, mordern and chinese dance...
i ahd some carzy friends ...
Michelle joined 8... Hanlin joined 6...
Charlene joined4 and i being the most sane one joined only 3...
Than there was OG night performance ...
i had to wear PINK ... the horror...
and i actually went on with it ...
Wow ... Big shocker ain't it ....