To be honest, I think you've completely ruin me for everyone else.
I know it sounds really ungrateful and superficial.
But sometimes I look at the incredibly gorgeous girls in my life and think to myself.
Must be great to be that pretty.
I envy that and sometimes wish to know what it feels like to be one of those effortlessly pretty girls.
Being around you makes me the lightest.
Momentary happiness that goes out just as quickly.
It seems time isn't kind to me.
The pain has never faded, not one bit.
How cruel really.
I'm tormenting myself.
I know i'm stubborn and do things differently.
but everything comes down to me missing you.
And it hurts so badly to see us like that.
You seem so disconcerted around me, like you don't know what to do.
Where to place your hands, when to bite your tongue.
Are we at a place with no return?
Of course if i could have it all, i want everything from you.
But i really would be content if we could just be comfortable around each other.
Tap my shoulders, hold my hand, share a hug.
When did things get so hard? ):