Come on lets smile
Have hope cause its a brand new day
Be glad you've been given this blessing to Live
Because to Live is the greatest strength of all
Lets live and make something beautiful ! ((:
I blog when life hurts too much
about me
all about me, baby
Take a step into my world and see.
Read for yourself my retrospection on life,
and words i have trouble speaking aloud
I like doing random spontaneous stuff
And i seriously find planning cumbersome
i really love my family
though sometimes it doesn't show
I hope to seek the great perhaps.
To live life, growing everyday.
Friday, April 27, 2012
@ 9:55 AM
Make mistakes. Fuck things up.
Grow, learn, dance, have fun, try out new things.
Patience, I really need to take things easy for now.
I really have no idea why, but this week has been hell.
I feel so tired and worn out by everything.
Seems like there's been too much going on.
To the point that i can't keep my moods in control.
I felt down too much and too often.
And I think that made me feel a little more needy.
Miss you a little more than i should.
I needed someone I guess.
Or at least I hope that's the reason.
Or it will mean I'm falling back on my favourite mistake.
I'm pretty sure I have perfected the art of falling to hard too fast.
I really need logic and practicality to return to me.
I need time, patience and perhap a more open mind.
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
@ 12:17 AM
The kind of love story i want really.
Simplistic.
Forever.
Assured.
And elusive as ever it seems.
Thursday, April 19, 2012
The What Ifs @ 9:51 PM
We only breathe for so long. Life is so short and our youth so elusive. Have you ever thought of what you wanted? Not what you want in your future, or even how your life to turn out. But rather right now. Perhaps if we all identified what we wanted right now. Bit by bit the pieces will just come together.
I want you. Its simple yet complex really. I am absolutely clueless as to what i feel exactly. But i know for sure i want you. And i'm selfish when it comes to this. I want you to want me too, and only me. No one else, for this i cannot share.
I remember you once told me. "Who am i to love, when i'm afraid to fall" It's ironic how apt it describes me now really. As much as i want to, i'm also scared as hell. Life fucks you up like that. And with you, everything seems twice as hard. You blow hot and cold. You can move from being sweet and caring, to distant and capricious in a nano- second. Its honestly frightful really.
But somehow even though change is scary. Even though the unknown and uncertainty is so terrifying. I know i'll still want you. Even if you crashed and burnt in front of me, even if you fucked everything up big time. I still do.
Tuesday, April 03, 2012
@ 8:36 PM
Sunday, April 01, 2012
@ 11:45 PM
When someone can make you feel so incrediblely happy. It gives him the power to make you completely miserable too. Come to think of it, it's kind of scary. How much power one person can have over your moods and feelings. Sigh, I really like you :/ But it's honestly hard to ascertain what you feel and what you're thinking. Every moment we spend together, it kinda feels like a ticking time bomb to me. Like at any point of time it can all just disappear into nothing. Which is why whenever I am with you, I'll just go for it and do whatever I want. It may sound wrong but I actually mean it in the most innocent way. Holding you hand, leaning on your shoulders, lying beside you, just talking and wasting time with you. It makes me so happy. Such a simple kind of happy. Its like a drug the kind of feelings you give me. Euphoria. And I am so scared of letting it go. But honestly I really can't see where we are going with this. I'm really really curious, what do you think of me? I want so much more.