So this is what it feels like to be down in the dumpsto feel loneliness in a crowda hollow emptiness despite having someonewith feeling unreciprocatedYou'll think after all that shiti'll have learnt my lessonApparently not.Why are you still doing this to me...
i lied.
guess i'm way in over my head than i actually dare to admit
why did i let it come to this ..
I need this BT2 to end like.... NOW!!
ok only three more papers .. i can do this..
my math is so screwed i don't even want to think about it..
i think i did like 30 marks worth of questions ??
Mdm kwan is so gonna skewer my ass
SHIATSSSSS
oh and i think i'm getting immune
waiting is not even part of the game anymore
i treat the ignoring or what i feel is the ignoring with apathy
seriously someone is screwing around with my irrational thinking
HO HO HO ..
You're always there when i
want you
But you're never there when
need you
But there's always my best friend to catch me whenever
i'm falling
Thank you so much my dear
i know how much your time with him now means to you
so my biggest thanks for sharing the time to keep me company
YOU'RE THE BEST
I have dance everyday
excluding
Sundaysfrom morning to night
my body is aching
both my feet are sore
i feel exhausted and tired everyday
i never have the energy to study
and this will go on for another 4 more days
i don't think i can handle it
my life right now is really just three words:
"EAT, SLEEP, DANCE"
i'm cranky, drained and
i'll probably snap soon
but its not just that
i feel stress coming from all over
the need to excel is overwhelming
i really don't want to go away on the 13
th, 14
th and 15
thi know i won't study and
i'll just be really bored and lonely
i want to stay in Singapore
so very much
catch up with my work and rest a little
but i can't say that cause no one will believe me anyway
i can already imagine what my mum will say
i really don't want to go
i feel so lost
like there are just so many walls closing in on me
i don't have the physical or emotional capability to handle all this
i thinks
i'm going to break
i hate having expectations
and i hate becoming dependent
i hate waiting
but that seem to be what i am doing most of the time
there are so many voices all over
and i don't know who to trust
listen to my own?
i can't even find it
i don't know what i want
LOST is really what i ultimately feel
don't you just wish thing can be so much simpler sometimes?