There are thing that i see and hear
somethings that i know
i'm sorry you've had to suffer
i'm sorry i've been such a coward
hiding in this comfort zone you've given me
but for you
i will step out of it
for us
It will only work if we both have faith in it .
My sister is coming back soon
Man we've all missed her
there just seems to be less noise and laughter
So i was just thinking
I don't tend to think all that deep
but just some random thoughts flashing here and there
Emo and what-not weird part starts here :So i was thinking about how sometimesi think i have so much to say but i end up not saying anything
how i am so very afraid of telling you certain stuff
(And unless you are a total brain dead moron you'll know who i mean)
its just hard
i have some serious self-esteem issues
especially in front of you
something like i'm not worthy of you
but not really that either
Its quite confusing
i dream of this day of time where we'll just be alone
no distractions, no other factors
where i can just pour every issue i have out
or maybe just another long walk
in companionable silence
thinking we know whats on each others mind
when in reality we know naught huh
and than my thought came to linger on the past
not very advisable to get lost in it
but just a short little trip back
i realise i miss so many things
things that i didn't take for granted
but they're still no longer there
i miss the days when i was the first thing on you mind
and i had a message a day to prove it
till today you are still the very first thing i miss
but sometimes things change
and take such drastic turns
that i don't hear a thing all day
thats one example
and there are so many other beautiful small things that mean the world to me
but reality always steps in and things always change
but than again we must understand
whatever hurt whatevr pain i may feel
i go through them oh so willingly
foolish, illogical or impractical it may seem
but i have chosen to take it
i'm afterall just an average, simple and silly little girl
i want to just know that i've done everything i could
and walk away with no regrets
and of cause on top of it all
i was just missing you in general
and my thoughts lingered on all the beautiful things you've said to me
even if they were in passing remark
believe me i do remember
and it makes me so very very happy
Yeah like i said simple girl -> easily contented
(so the whole emo weird yada yada what not thing ends here)Alright so back to whats up with living
Man the so called "clubbing" yesterday really sucked
Shang i hate you for it
and i demand MORE pony rides
And shit it that i missed st.
james power house
heard it was beyond man
but still i had an amazing time
just eating, listening and walking with jun
weimost definitely worth missing the party
whats clubbing compared to the simple things? (: