Come on lets smile
Have hope cause its a brand new day
Be glad you've been given this blessing to Live
Because to Live is the greatest strength of all
Lets live and make something beautiful ! ((:
I blog when life hurts too much
about me
all about me, baby
Take a step into my world and see.
Read for yourself my retrospection on life,
and words i have trouble speaking aloud
I like doing random spontaneous stuff
And i seriously find planning cumbersome
i really love my family
though sometimes it doesn't show
I hope to seek the great perhaps.
To live life, growing everyday.
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
@ 7:57 PM
Can someone just slap me
Why do i procrastinate so much !
Argh stupid dumb essay
@ 12:31 AM
Trust in God
Let your life play out according to His will
Have Faith that with everything He puts you through,
it will help you grow as a person
Trust that if it was meant to be it will be
And remember all things happen for a reason that God knows in all His wisdom
Seek comfort in times of trouble because your heavenly Father is carrying you
And with every sorrow He will bring about joy aplenty
Have Hope, keep Faith, and believe in His Love for you, His child
And as i remember all this I know i will make it through another day
And with a smile no less (:
Friday, September 25, 2009
@ 4:03 AM
I am so blessed to have some of the greatest friends in the world
I really hope they all know how much they mean to me
and how they are my pillars of strength right now
making everyday easier to bare
they stand by me, give me their time
Making every single day so much better
And here i'll be,
i will give you whatever help you ask of me
i will stand by you
Please be happy
for your own sake
I'll be here supporting you as best as i can
i promise.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
@ 2:26 AM
I have been really into taking photos recently
I have this strong need to preserve memory
Like i am afraid if i don't have this photos
when this people have to go or want to leave
i will not be able to remember
Its kinda weird but yeah
its just this new thing
Photos, so i will never forget
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
@ 5:47 PM
I once loved like the sun rises and sets with him
and now i shall miss him with every beat of my heart
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
@ 11:19 AM
Its the third day since you left
and i still miss you very much
and foolishly still want you back
I keep having redundant questions swim through my head
But i am keeping my promise and staying strong
I am working to move through my life
even as i battle every single day thus far
But i guess we just need the time to heal
I just wish i can decide on what i want
I turn to God in prayer and i ask for his guidance
I really want to be a child that honours him and be someone that finds favour in his eyes
There is this small selfish part of me that wants to fight for Jun Wei's love
in the sense that i want a chance to be his friend again and see whether we could fall in love again
But i guess that's just not very possible
i realise that i cant do that to him
even though i would very much want a second chance
It would hurt him too much
and really pressurise him
I don't want to do anything that makes anything harder for him
so i shall content myself with just helping him through this
and at the same time i will just let things flow naturally
And trust in God's plans for me
And let what is suppose to happen just happen
I guess sometimes the saying is true
when you love someone truly
you just have to let him go
and trust that if he was meant to be yours
he will come right back
Now abide faith, hope, love,
these three;
but the greatest of these is love
1Corinthians 13:13
@ 12:50 AM
I was better today
At least i cried less
And i manage to get back on my feet and go for dance
I went out with my family after that
They are really supporting me so much
I feel so touched (:
And i have such great friends too
they are all standing by me
Helping me out and accepting my emotional ups and downs
And with strength from my Holy Father
I can do this
I'll make it
I have so much love around me
Gambatte
Be strong and get through this
you have so many supporting you (:
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
@ 11:35 AM
I had a selfish morning today
I cried again
I allowed myself to feel all the selfish emotions
How much i missed him
how much i want him back
how much i wish we had a chance
and worst of all was how despite everything
All I've done, how I've waited and all I've sacrifice
It wasn't enough for him to want to stay with me during his time of need
But yeah that was my moment of weakness
But i am trying hard
The Lord's words gave me strength
and so does whatever i do have left with him
It gives me strength and life to get through each day
My God know exactly what to say
His words just gave me renewed conviction each day
How the greatest of all is love
and how stretching out a helping hand can be the greatest demonstration of God's love
So i will stay strong and fight
And i will be here as much as you need me
I will help i promise Jun Wei
I will be there for you (:
So please hang in there and stay strong too
You CAN do this
Monday, September 14, 2009
@ 10:45 PM
Stay strong tiffany
You can do this
there is so much at stake
so much more than you
Please stay strong
you can do this
Even if it feels like every second your heart is breaking
Even if you feel like everything is falling apart
And all you wanna do is to have him back
You have to be strong, hang in there, bare with it
Remember the love you have for him
You can do this
I can and i will
i know i can
I wont give up so pleae dont give up either
Help me stay strong
@ 11:10 AM
When i woke up this morning
I really broke
It was like a huge wave of sorrow just washed right over me
I wasn't ready
So i cried
I cried like I've never cried before
I cried so hard i thought i wouldn't be able to stop
So many selfish thoughts cross my mind
And i just surrendered myself to it
I allowed it to just flow right out
I ranted it all out
And i was right
I don't mean any of it
They are all meaningless words that i say out of fear and frustration at the thought of losing you
But yeah I'll be strong
I promise you
and i will
I'll do my very best
But yeah i still love you
So damn much
So I'll be here k
I help in whatever way i can
Even if you feel like you can no longer bare it
I will help you
I'll take whatever you cannot bare
I share whatever burden you care to share with me
I know you have a lot to deal with right now
But you can also turn to God
He Loves you and will lead you down the right path
You just have to trust in Him
But I'll be here for you, you can count on that
Just to support you through this
That's how i love you (:
Sunday, September 13, 2009
@ 1:54 PM
Be still my breaking heart Hush and stay strong Despite the pain it'll be alright Trust in the Lord You can do this Bear the hurt Strive hard and endure the sufferings
Because you love him
@ 2:08 AM
I am sorry Father i tried to stay strong i tried so hard i really did my best But i still broke After all who can bare the thought of the one you love falling for another and remain indifferent I really do love him so very very much And even though my utmost priority is for him to be happy the pain i feel is still so real and so deep i can't help but feel so horrifyingly afraid of losing him Every breathe i take just sends jolts of pain right into the depths of my heart
Its like having a constant heartache that has its own fluctuating intensity I am trying my hardest to bear it Father but its just so excruciating Give me the strength Father to get through this because i cannot do this alone Grant me Your guidance and let me take the path that You have planned for me I know everything will happen for a reason in Your time help me understand this and get through this in the way that pleases you
And guide him too Father
down the right path
Even if it is away from me
Help him find himself again
I would want nothing more than to just stay with him
to be the one that loves him
But we leave it in Your hands now
It will be if it is what You want for us Lord
Saturday, September 12, 2009
@ 12:10 AM
i spend the whole day thinking today
And as i pondered
a lot of painful possibilities crossed my mind as well
and yeah you probably guessed it
i was thinking about love
about my relationship
about the stuff he said
And i was really sunk in misery
I kept trying to think who i can turn to
and at first i really thought no one
And than i realise i did have Someone
Someone new and for the first time i really turned to God
and believe it or not
I've love His words long before i knew Him
1 Corinthians: 13
I've always remembered this passage
and to me that's the way i wanted to love
and till today i really try to do it
of course I've failed and I'm flawed
but i am trying hard
and everything he told me today on the phone
despite how much it hurts I've decided to just continue loving him the way i know how
love him in a way that pleases God
to the best that i can and trust that whatever happens
it happen because it is God's plan for me
It takes some getting use to
i am after all new at this
i have to slowly let Him in
but it really is great to know that in all things i will always have God by my side
Wednesday, September 09, 2009
@ 11:53 PM
Its always ok if its with a friend Even if the friend is a girl and its only the two of you But its never ok if the photo is with me whats so wrong i will never get to be seen in a photo with me
Thursday, September 03, 2009
@ 11:06 PM
Can you please stop talking and treating me like i dont matter?
That spending anytime with me mean absoluely nothing.