Seriously ... a major change can happen at the speed of thought ...
five minutes before this i wanted to do an entry that involved a huge amount of bitching ...
i really wanted to vent all my pent up anger ...
swear and curse like there was no tomorrow...
insult all the people that i felt did me wrong ...
But than i saw this phrase on television ...
and everything changed ...
my perfectly planned rant about how annoying and bitchy some people can be ...
All gone ... vanished at that very second ...

I am only human ... he is only human ...
and humans make mistakes...
i ain't trying to act like some saint nor do i feel like forgiving him anytime soon
but i don't think i am going to do anything ...
just stick around and see how things go...
call me a coward or say i am gutless...
but i really don't see a point in retaliating ...
as long as nobody has to suffer the same thing it is all good...
i know is sound like some "angelic saint"...
but i am so fucking not ...
i am just so sick of fighting and letting him affect ...
i just wanna get on with life ...