I have dance everyday
excluding Sundays
from morning to night
my body is aching
both my feet are sore
i feel exhausted and tired everyday
i never have the energy to study
and this will go on for another 4 more days
i don't think i can handle it
my life right now is really just three words:
"EAT, SLEEP, DANCE"
i'm cranky, drained and i'll probably snap soon
but its not just that
i feel stress coming from all over
the need to excel is overwhelming
i really don't want to go away on the 13th, 14th and 15th
i know i won't study and i'll just be really bored and lonely
i want to stay in Singapore
so very much
catch up with my work and rest a little
but i can't say that cause no one will believe me anyway
i can already imagine what my mum will say
i really don't want to go
i feel so lost
like there are just so many walls closing in on me
i don't have the physical or emotional capability to handle all this
i thinks i'm going to break

i hate having expectations
and i hate becoming dependent
i hate waiting
but that seem to be what i am doing most of the time
there are so many voices all over
and i don't know who to trust
listen to my own?
i can't even find it
i don't know what i want
LOST is really what i ultimately feel
don't you just wish thing can be so much simpler sometimes?