Hello
I'm still young
ok maybe not that young
but still kinda green
i'm still learning and figuring life out
i dont know what love is
but i know its something you can give to more than one person
Heres to someone special
I know alot has happen to you lately
Many bad things
But i'm here girl
I try to protect you as much as i can
Maybe thats bad
but it comes instinctively
i hope i havent hurt you or over step my boundaries
just be careful
people can hurt you in many ways
doesnt matter if you have feelings or not
you know your tendencies to let your heart rule your mind
i just dont want to see you hurt
but i guess we all have to learn our own way
Just know that i'll be here
I should just realize he won't remember
And stop waiting for him to remember
But than again i've never seem to learn
And still i hope
So i guess i'll just be waiting
Its always the littlest things that matter the most
Why try so hard to fit in ?
When you were born to stand out and shine.
Oh fuck
you fucking kidding me
all my pictures taken yesterday are gone
fuck
what the fuck happen to my cam
Oh goodnesss
fuck
This is the only one left
What the fuck?!?!!?!
This has got to be a fucking joke
fuck fuck fuck
So zouk last night
was with the Mary anne, Rachel, the bestfriend, Lizard, Tanny, and KIM
By order of appearance
HAHA lots of laughter, joking and bitching
all was good
Martini was real YUMMY TOO
But i can't say the same for the apple shooters
that were apparently suppose to be "SWEET"
I got conned
Mary anne and rachel
how can you do this to me
HAHA kidding
So later on we moved on the st james
FIVE free drinks
WOO so so very awesome
haha i sound so cheapo
anyway everything was good
had a pretty good time
but than again
i'm always happy dancing
So to digress
collection of A level results tomorrow
i should be more scared or nervous
but strangely i don't feel much
just loads of neutral anticipation
i so don't know what to expect
HAHA
Music is magical
bringing people together
Differences are forgottenyou just know one thing
we are all the same
under the dark sky
Shadowed by the incandescent lights
captivated by the same pulsing beatThis is CLUBBINGIf you haven't felt it you ain't doing it rightOk i'm done
BYEEEE world
love you all
ok not really..
maybe only some
Warning: This is going to be an
emo-drama-mama-over sensitive-
whacked out post
You have been WARNEDAlright here it goes
something is wrong
recently my
paranoia is acting up again
feels
a bit like the horrors of 1st three months in
tpjcI keep having this bugging thoughts that everyone hates me
at work
at home
with friends
its
scaryoh no what if i start breaking down all over again
why why why
oh god
this is very bad
its not like there are
blatant signs of any sorts
its just things..
small tiny things
a careless whisper
a
perhaps joking insult
or just a stare, look or glance
just small little things
maybe
i'm thinking too much again
or maybe not
just let me know and i won't bother you
i try to be happy i really do
but its hard sometimes
maybe i should just go back to being an introvert
be quiet and be ignored
maybe that will be easier
just imagine "
we all hate you cause you're weird"
i just need someone to SHOW me its all in my head
