Hello world
recently it seems like my blog is my only solace
where i can let out my sadness
it just gets tiring keeping it inside
its really hard to paste a smile on your face
and add a chirp to your voice
when all you feel like doing is curling up in a corner to cry and die
(funny how that rhymes)
right now i'm really sick
flu cough fever and aches
and i should be recovering already
but something is wrong
my body knows its time
but my heart mind and soul feels so weak
so weary so tired
i feel like staying ill
so that i can just lock myself away
so i can just stay in bed and wallow in my misery
pathetic isn't it
i cant feel the will to carry on
maybe its the illness talking
i just feel so very very exhausted
trying to make everyone around me better
its like no matter how hard i try
something will come along and i'll have to start all over
or worst everything will back fire and i'll feel so guilty and horrid

i feel so lonely right now
and i so very very unwanted