Everything is falling apart
i am losing everyone i love and care about in someway or another
i don't understand why my mother is always mad at me
always scolding
i am scared even to say anything in her presence
and for that she still yells at me
saying that i have an attitude problem
i don't know why my sister say I've been sarcastic to her
i am just speaking the same way as i always do
she's been awfully aloof
and I've been so broken lately
i don't know how much more of her sorrows i can take
i know i am suppose to be there for her
and support her
but i really am dying
pushed right to my limit
i really don't know how much more i can bear
I've already lost the first boy i loved with all my heart and soul
And it just seems like i am failing him even as a friend
why is everything else being taken away too
and i am so worried for my daddy
his rheumatoid arthritis
it may get worst
i can only pray Lord that You will make it better
he isn't that young anymore
Please keep him safe and healthy
And throw in all of life's other little stress
i really am at a complete lost
Why can't i get anything right
its such a crucial period in school too
i am burning out
i really am at the edge and sooner or later i am just going to fall off
i feel my heart breaking every single second of every minute
i am so so so tired
and yet i still have to work so hard to be strong
I know Father that all this trials are there to test me
to strengthen my Faith
Lord i leave it all up to you
Please give me the strength and courage i need to go on
I need some comfort
I need someone, somebody , anything
because i don't think i can fall any further or break anymore
so help me Father
I know i can get through all this with You on my side
This song has been on repeat, i guess i am still waiting for my day to come
Someday we'll know-new radicals
90 miles outside Chicago