i just got back from church camp
and it has truly been such an enriching experience
And i have learnt much
The focus of the camp was on one of my favorite passage
1 Corinthians 13
many would think that this passage has been used once too often
but the speaker blessed by God's wisdom has expounded on it at a whole different level
He taught me so much of love
and exposed so much of my inadequacies
and yet he has shown my strengths
and taught me to never give up
Through this God has answered so many of my doubts
and shown me so much and how i should go from here
To have love and its attributes expounded in such a detailed manner
had really help me realize how to go on from here
So many questions i had for myself have been answered
i know now to question my intentions and motives every single time
to keep reviewing myself,
for the sinful nature is so apparent in me
and i do not doubt that my love for you is true
Now, i know I really do love you in all sincerity
But it seems the inner battle will never cease
Moment i want to scream for you not to go
Where i wish i could have you back in my arms
but in my heart knowing that it is not for me to say
I am happy to say that i fight hard against many of this circumstances
I know that His plans for me are unknown
but that i have to have faith in His wisdom and perfect love
that he will let his plans unfold for me
that i should never stop trying
never stop striving and struggling to love as He does, to love as he dictate
to remember that we love because Christ has first loved us
And that to chase after love
to always pursue love
because without love every other thing we do
despite all blessing and wisdom will be nothing
will mean nothing
unless it stems from love
