I am so tired !!School is really stressing me and smothering me
why is there so much to do
why is it so hard
I feel so drained
i don't know if i can still hold myself together
I need a hug so bad ):
You still are and i still do
I miss you, when can i ever stop missing you? i ask really pray everyday and i really wonder everyday why does God give me this feelings and what He wished me to do of them. i love you dear
i have to be strongi can do this, i just have to be contented
take it one step at a time
trust in His plans for me
and believe that all this within me is there for a reason
i have to, its all i have left
Proverbs 3
5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
6 in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.
How many times can i watch my hopes fall
before completely losing it
before i start running away
why does everything feel so hopeless without you ):
I always tell myself that i'll bear all misery and heartache for you, that i'll do everything to keep myself happy around you so you wont be troubled because i love you. but lately I've been feeling so tired, i don't know how much more i can bear love, why am i so lousy?
i am so tired ..i want to give up
how much more do i have to give?
what am i trying to prove?
why cant i just let it go?
i feel like i have been fighting for so long
and i really am so drained out
I don't know how much more i can bear
Why do you keep lying to me,
is it so fun to make a mockery of me?
Hello, i'm sorry i lied, i don't feel ok
i know you will listen to everything i may have to say
but there are somethings i just can't speak out loud
Hopeless dream
I miss you, it hurts so much to love you dear
i don't know how much more i can bear
why is she so special to you? and i am nothing
Hidden agendas
Lies and secrecy
Sigh its getting harder and harder for me to trust people nowadays
I wish i could go back to believing in the best of people once again :(
Please stop pretending like nothing happened?I know what i promised
But is it really that hard to be a little nicer
to take it a little slower
not make me feel like its just so EASY to dump me
and forget about everything that has occurred
because they did, and i believe you
i believe the words you said
that i am not a toy, so please show me that :(
i miss you, and it hurts so much when you didn't wish me happy 14
and when you ignore my sms today:(
Just when you thought there is nothing else you can possibly have left to giveThere will always be that one last thing
the one last comfort
the one last thing that bring me comfort
that i hold on to to remind myself
it is all worth it
every tear, every cry, every sleepless night
I have to give up even this
let go of even this one last thing
but i did it anyway
because you asked me to
I have to fight so hard
Happy 14th dear, i feel like i'm always chasing you
Even if its for 5 minutes, 1 minute, i wish i could see you
i need to believe that there is some feeling behind every touch of our flesh
i wish i could have you in my arms again, my chest as you pillow any day
just let me hold you
Sometimes the words we cannot sayare the words we want so much to speak out
There's so much i wish i could tell you
But the words get caught, stuck just as they are about to come out
Because many things are of far greater importance than what i want
maybe some day, my dream can come true too.
Till then, every moment is a blessing from Him
I love you, and i will keep my promise to you
I will try and strive my hardest.
I know it's probably going to sound bimbo-tic
but i adore watching gossip girl
Seriously it is the funniest shit ever
i cannot stop laughing
i just love sarcasm
I can so see you all judging me already
but really, its hilarious HAHAHAHAHA
You should watch it too
My run seems to have me real giddy
dizzy, woozy and sticky too HAHA
i think i should at least eat something during the day
before attempting exercise
Failed nurse man, can't even take care of her own body
p.s i miss you Jun Wei (:
Time to re-evaluate, what do i choose?
