Hope can be a beautiful thing
I wanna scream
SERIOUSLY
i am super annoyed
I think i'm on the edge
i think finally reached that edge
The end point
MY LIMIT
I should really really get to my make or break after papers
and stop dragging
WHAT AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE IF I JUST LET THIS CARRY ON?
Hello, how was you day?
I wanted to ask
But i am a huge wuss
Scared of so many stupid thing
Exams are stressful
But i can't bring myself to really study
Cause i miss you ):
Haha do you get it?
YOU ROCK.. GOSH FUNNY SHIT
I am happy today
i pray God will help me maintain this mentality
To always be thankful and contented
I really had a very happy blessed day (:
I want to wake up to you every morning
Wouldn't that just be so lovely
Look back and thank God.
Look forward and trust God.
Look around and serve God.
Look within and find God.
Forever and always, He is faithful
I have to hold this close to my heart
Constant struggle, constant reminder
I'm sorry i am so crazy
that i act like an insane paranoid girl
i don't know why you put up with my shit
but i hope with all my heart it stems from love
This is not my excuse but i hope it will help you understand
I go crazy because its so hard
I have to watch us slowly die
I have to watch you slowly go away
and it makes me feel like dying everyday
cause it is all so true
When the night falls on you
You don't know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less
I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by youTake me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you, by the pretenders
Hope, He is my strength, my light my hope for all things
No matter how much pain it is
My Lord will light the way
He will get me through
I will wait for you
I know you care about me, truly
I remember you once loved me deeply
I understand that for me you are trying
I realize that somewhere in your heart i am special
But,
we seem to be stuck halfway
we're not really here not really there
it breaks my heart,
is this really ok?
I am so bloody terrified that if we go on like this
one i day i will feel like a tiring burden to you
an obligation.
a charity case perhaps
I once could do it, i had the strength to hold it all together for you
But somehow i lost it
what if i can't get it back
i really really need some TLC my dear
Finn: HiQuinn: Hi. Can we be in love again?
Finn: i have to tell you something first. I err want us to be honest with each other no matter what.
Quinn: You can tell me anything
Finn: Cool, err its not really that big a deal *blah blah some stuff about rachel in a cat suit BLAH*
But nothing happened, because i only want to be with you.
Quinn: its alright, thank you for being honest with me.
Finn: I love you quinn.
Quinn: I love you too (in the sweetest whisper EVER)
My all time favorite scene ever, how can you not love Quinn fabray?
I've thought so much recently
its overwhelming me
I've missed you so much lately
its consuming me
I've lost that trusting quality
instead suspicion, paranoia rips me apart
i am trying so hard
reaching out, straining for that breath of air
can't you see, my dear
just how right now
you're killing me
The very last thing i wanna be
is a burden unto you
if only i had died when you broke my heart
so i don't have to feel like i am dying constantly
just listened to "hello" by lionel richie, some how the lyrics just made me cry
There was so much i wanted to tell him
But i knew they would hurt him
So i buried them and let them hurt me
why have i been so sad this few days
Can you tell me that everything will be ok
no, you can't
i am so so tired of crying
The 14th
Bane of my current situation much
I use to love this day
ADORE IT
it was always something worth celebrating about
the day we got together
How could i have guessed that we would break up on the very same day?
It really was unnecessarily cruel
Every 14th now makes me cry
No matter how strong i try to be
How long and hard i try to hold the tears back
POINTLESS
my heart still breaks
the tears still flow
But than again i think it breaks everyday?
i really am quite hopeless aren't i?
It isn't anyones fault but mine i guess
I don't wanna hurt you
I don't wanna pressure you
But it really is hard to control
Sometimes i wish i had more guts
To say what i want to say, what i need to say
You once asked me what i expect of you
and i actually have kept it in mind
And thought about it
i expect nothing actually
My head knows that it is unwise to expect anything
Oh but my heart
my senseless heart hopes
its never fails to hope
And it is always disappointed
Like today, i carried that same foolish hope
that you might remember today, remember me
An hold me like you once did, like you would never let me fall
I have no right to hope really
I'm not your girlfriend
I'm not anybody really
you owe me nothing
i deserve nothing from you
So why does it still hurt so much?
I wish today was still special to you
I wish i could see you
i wish i could still say happy 14 without having to second guess and reconsider
but what can i do ?
everything i want will only end up hurting you or burdening you in some way
Its like having thorned vines circling my heart
Outwardly it protects my heart
but i have to keep my heart still
It cannot be moved by you
Or it will be pierced
it will hurt
If only you knew how completely terrified i am
i am so wary because i really am so scared of pushing you further away
I hate this whiny, emo, miserable weakling I've become
I am a terrible ex
I need a hug ):
How can it possibly still hurt so much?
I hate this day
its never fails to break my heart
it hurts too much
Hello Mr. Right
I'm waiting on you
find me soon ok (:
Do you feel light shine in the darkest of nights, or does the Pain stack up from the skin to the coreDo you find every time that you cover your eyes
to keep the tears held up, dripping down even more
Let the words come down, every line in sight
and put the young flames up and make you cower and cower
If the sun breaks in instead of sparkling the sight,
I promise you I'll be here to let the light in
Finally I get this feeling we're all alone in one big world
Just to realize
that all these shapes and colors are so it doesn't hurt so badly
So life doesn't hurt, doesn't hurt so badly,
so life doesn't hurt, doesn't hurt so badly
Please don't look at life, look at me so sadly.
Life shouldn't hurt, doesn't hurt so badly
Angels and Airwaves The Flight of Apollo
Try standing in my shoes
Imagine what it feels like for me every single time
Its like wishing for rain in a desert
Hopeless and desperate
I am so bloody miserable
I am scared
It does feel like something died
i feel like someone about to take a leap into an unknown abyss
one that could very well save my life or end it (dramatic, i know)
so yeah i'm scared
