So..
2 heartbreaks in 2010
But thats ok..
what with my last sem in nus, graduation, ucla and grad trip
I look forward to new love, new friends, new boys, new experiences.
2011?
BRING IT ON
Decisions, decisions
My problems feel so frivolous
But i guess we all have our own set of issues
Who is to say my pain is less than yours
I am honestly at a lost
Not that i don't know what has to be done
Its the putting it into action that scares me
I really cannot decide
Because if leaving is really the right thing to do
Than why is it that i feel so damn sad every time is think about it?
Why does it hurt so much?
What is it that holds me back,
because honestly it feels like i am losing you anyway.
Take chances
Life is just too fleeting.
I know we could have been extraordinary and amazing
Because when i leap, i always give it my all
But you're afraid of falling. :/
No matter, i guess moving forward is all that is left.
I know patience is a virtue
but i really can't wait for this once again.
((((((:
To leave or not to leave, now that is the question
Sigh, what if just friends isn't enough?
I refuse to believe that i cannot find a boy that will never let me go,
that won't run after me if i tried to leave
He's there, somewhere ..
Just have to keep lookingggggggggg (:
Cause i am honestly worth it.
Every action
reciprocates a reaction
we make choices
and they make an impact
cause a change
so what is mine this time.
i wonder
But listening to John mayer
I have to agree
Anything other than yes is no
anything other than stay is go
So here comes another good bye i guess
In the end it's still the same
they leave, they all do
I'm disappointed, annoyed and piss.
This sucks so much.
Fuck it.
I'm too overwhelmed to articulate well.
Today i cried for a stranger
I'm sorry you had to lose a parent at such a young age
i'm sorry that from this day forth
The holiday seasons will bring back painful memories instead of joy
Sometime we feel the pain of others
We imagine what they are going through
and it breaks us
I imagined what it felt like to lose someone so dear
and i cried for you
But today i realize that no matter how hard i imagine
It probably isn't even close to what you really felt
And i cried even harder
I don't know whats wrong with me
But i hope you will be alright
that you will survive this and become stronger
and that my sister will survive this too
I'll be here to hold your hand
Out of sheer complete random-ness
I felt like making a list today
So, here it is
Top 10 things that make me happy/smile/laugh
10. Cute, witty, charismatic boys (Irresistible! )
9. Awesome books
8. Dancing, roller blading and chocolates
7. A total cinematic moment happening for real
6. Relief (like the kind that come from waking up early in the morning to receive a text saying the morning lecture has been cancelled, and two more glorious hours of sleep awaits)
5. Hugs (Long, warm ones)
4. Yuki (Dog)
3. My friends
2. Best friend Charlene Goh Xin Yi and oldest friend Ho Kah Fai
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1. My Family and God
I want to be happy like that again ):
Trust
It really is so so fragile
And the ability to trust takes so much courage
And i just don't trust people like i use to
I'm way to scared
And i just feel like i shouldn't bother
The moment i feel deceived
It all just falls apart
Broken
Nope, i really don't think i can do this
You can't make me feel secure the way i need it
at least for now, i think..
Something about this paragraph
It just feels so pure and romantic
So raw and intense
It makes me want to fall in love all over again
