I use to be so defiantly sure that age is but a number
That it is all perception
but maybe it matters after all
but than again
this could be one of my overdrive, frivolous train of thought
maybe i'm just being too sensitive.
too too sensitive
But i really hate being thought of as old.
Sigh.
I need to stop thinking so much
and start realizing that i am never the exception
Sometimes when i look into the mirror
i cannot help but wonder
How could anyone possibly love me
I really am not sure what is wrong with me sometimes
I can never stick to one choice can I?
I really don't know which is worst
But than again sometimes decisions like these are out of my hands
When it comes to two people
More often than not, I find that the decision is usually already been made for me
But this time i do have a choice
and i get to choose
I can choose to forgo and forget everything
Make it so that there is nothing left
But the thought of that is awfully sad
But than again,
the way things are now, ain't exactly much better
So what should i do???
I really just feel so miserable and torn either way
Sometimes all you ever need is that one moment
That one absolutely perfect memory where everything just felt right
Hold on to that, relish it and re- live it
For me it helps, just knowing you once had something so amazing and extraordinarily special is enough
Makes everything worth it too (:
I am so totally back
So i have finally gotten out of this rut i have been in
I guess the thing that kept holding me back was just
WHY?
Mainly why did you ask me to wait for you if you were giving up on me
That i will never understand.
BUT.
Its ok.
Knowing the answer changes nothing anyway
Its time to snap of it
and return to being my AWESOME self! (:
Time for new chances, new love and new experiences.
Look forward to new memories.
Its great to have hope again!
I love how simple and direct this is.
