I don't know what I am doing
I am more confuse than ever
My heart is all over the place
and my mind just speeds at a hundred miles an hour

I feel like there is so much growing up left to do
and i can't do it here
I feel so protected and so comfortable
Slipping into what is routine is too easy
I can't wait to leave for a bit
I think i'll be sad.
I love my family and my life here

But something is just missing
I feel like i need to find out more about myself
Have some kind of coming of age journey unique to me
Fall in love, go crazy
Break a few hearts, have mine broken
Miss the important people.
Listen to new and old music, day dream a little
Let the top down, have a road trip.
Laugh, smile, cry and get mad.
Make some mistakes, learn something new.

I need to just go away and get away for a bit.
I don't really know who i am yet or what i want or need
But i cannot wait to find out.

Or maybe this is all just an excuse to run away.