I miss my boyfriend.
Not that he is far away or distant.
I just miss the person he was.
The sweet caring guy.
full of laughter and fun.
Who really loved me so much and wasn't afraid to show it.
Who was happy to have me, and proud that i was his.
Who never failed time and time again to remind me i was never allowed to leave him.
That he would never leave me.
The one who made me feel like I was irreplaceable.
Who was open, had no secrets.
Who cherished me and really "sayang" me.
Who he is now, hurts me all the time.
Insensitive.
Callous.
Nonchalant.
Harsh.
Critical.
Snappy.
I feel so optional.
I never pretended to be anyone else,
I forewarned you of my insecurities and the reassurance i needed.
I asked you time and time again if you are sure.
I'm so sick of shedding tears alone.
And i am so tired of trying to tell him how i feel.
Because he doesn't want to listen.
He doesn't even care if i were to leave,
Dismay. Sad. Disappointed.
Come back.
