I am on the verge, at the edge, tipping point.
Whatever you want to call it.
I don't know if I am greedy or selfish but I cannot change the fact that i feel this way.
I want more.
I feel like my relationship is unraveling at the seams and there is nothing I can do about it.
On the surface things seem fine, but I am sad and disappointed more often than not.
It a self indulgent post today.
I want to feel special and more important.
I'm tired of feeling so unneeded.
For someone who loves to plan, why don't I see you planning and setting time aside for me.
Or planning dates with me?
I see everyone so happy in their relationships and I am just seething with envy.
I am so Jealous of all my happy couple-ly friends who keep emphasizing the time they spend together.
I want that too, like they just cannot do without each other.
I want you to miss me more.
It hurts so much to feel like you hardly missed me even though we barely saw one another for the pass week.
When did it become like this?
Because I honestly remember a time when I felt like your everything.
But It seems so distant all of a sudden.
And I ask myself all the time, if I am so unhappy, why can't I let it go?
I just wish to feel special to you.
There's so much I want to do.
Go to the zoo, club, have breakfast, eat claypot laksa, have a nice dinner, go shopping, go dancing, or just watch tv.
I don't know, to sum up I just want to be a bigger part of your life.
More than what is now.