I wanted to be free.
I wanted it so badly.
I thought being single would help with that.
But now i feel lonely, well a little bit.
But i think my perspective has changed again.
I crave the thrill that comes with reckless abandonment.
I want to feel the infinite feeling i've read in some many books.
But something seems missing. :/
But, do or do not. There is no halfway.
We all begin as stranger, believe the one is out there.
Don't waste too much time mourning,
Spend it laughing, smiling, keeping your eyes open.
The right one will come along and take your breath away.
making the smile you have even brighter.
I actually consider getting a tattoo recently.
Toying with the concept of freedom.
I wonder if it will turn out to be a stupid idea.
Should i?
AWKWARD.
It's weird getting your heart broken by someone you barely know.
I mean its not exactly a smash your heart to smithereens kinda thing.
But it still sucks.
I have no idea why i am so easily bothered.
But i am. And i can't stop think about him.
Why am i acting like a 12 year old crushing school girl?!
And the night's events just plagued me my entire day.
I keep regretting my answer, but i was caught off- guard.
How am i to answer properly when my question got the answer "She is the girl i like"
Total face palm moment i swear.
I felt so awkward, and when i thought of how the night went.
I felt even worse, borderline stupid man.
Maybe it's a thing of desiring what you cannot have.
Or maybe the picture i painted was too ideal.
But i can't seem to let it go.
Hopefully it'll get better, soon, or perhaps till the next guy comes along.
Or not.
Textbook narcissistic post ahead.
Fair warning. Its gonna be self-centered and really frivolous.
I never thought I'll turn out to be the kind of girl that needs a guy.
but that's exactly what i seem to be becoming.
Well maybe not exactly need, but i really want a guy.
I just feel so weirdly lonely and disconnected.
I want someone to love me.
Someone to call my own i guess.
Which is all really stupid and ironic considering how i just ended a relationship about two weeks ago.
I really have no idea what is wrong with me.
I know i am totally rambling.
But i just feel so weird, and lost and like in love with someone i don't even know.
I mean seriously, who does that.
But I keep imagining all this cute possibilities.
Like my friends said man, i really need to reflect.
But goodness, my heart is just like fluttering everywhere.
