It's hard to find a balance.
I am trying really hard to give you space and time.
But deep down I yearn for greater intimacy.
Not expensive dates or grand romantic gestures.
But rather something simpler.
I miss the time we spend together.
We use to spend a lot more time together, just the two of us.
To be honest I couldn't care less where we were and what we are doing.
I would gladly roll in bed with you,
watch a movie in front of your computer together,
or even share a home cooked meal across the table.
To answer your question on Saturday night,
I literally just want to be with you.

I don't understand why you keep asking me to leave.
Do you really want me gone so badly?
Fighting to be with you is hard,
I am working on my insecurities, I made the choice to trust you.
It wasn't easy, but I'm trying because you are worth that.
I know things are hard for you too.
But aren't I worth it?
Am I not worth trying for?
Are WE not worth trying for?
Sure, your past haunts you.
We all have our own past.
But you won't feel like this forever,
you can get pass this.
And you don't have to do it alone.
Whether it's to give you space, or hold you close.
I'll be here.
Just try and imagine,
Honestly, we could be amazing.

But if staying with me makes life harder for you.
If I can't make you happy.
If you feel nothing for me but obligation.
Be honest.
And I will go.
I never want to be the cause of any pain or trouble to you.
If I ever become that.
You can tell me.
I will leave.
If not, I'm here, through thick through thin.
Through whatever bullshit that may come up.
I'll be here.