"You went out every night

And baby that's alright

I told you that no matter what you did I'd be by your side

Cause Ima ride or die

Whether you fail or fly

Well shit, at least you tried.

But when you walked out that door, a piece of me died

I told you I wanted more-but that's not what I had in mind

I just want it like before

We were dancin' all night

Then they took you away- stole you out of my life

You just need to remember"




~ Lana Del Rey, Blue Jeans.


Incidentally i should really stop listening to Lana Del Rey.

Does me no good, and honestly all this wallowing is getting boring.

Back to business.


You are not that.

How can you even say that?

You mean so terribly much to me.

Why can't you see this awesome person that you are?

The you that i see.


I hated reading what you said.

I think i've said it too many times before.

But i wish so bad that you could stand in my shoes and see the you that i see.

Its not about looks, physicality or papers or money.

Its who you are.

I never stopped believing in you.

Not even after everything that happened.

I still believe that you are that amazing person i fell for.

still do probably.


Do you think i'm stupid?

I think secretly many people probably do.

I honestly am not sure what i am doing.

Maybe this will not last.

I wish we could sit down one day.

Just the two of us.

Have a nice long talk, and perhaps we can come to some kind of agreement?

Or i guess we can keep it this way.

Go and be happy however you can.

I still want that the most.


It's said that the world is all that more beautiful,

that life is all that more worth living when someone loves you.

Well, if you still trust me.

I can promise you, i do.

Foolishly, hopelessly, but faithfully so.