Its always better to love something that can love you back.
Well that much is obvious.
Which begets the question.
How does one choose that?
Won't it be great if i could just accept the ones who love me and love them back.
Can i just stop, is there some mysterious device hidden in the deep recesses of my heart and mind.
An elusive switch that can help me flip everything off?
Its like cupid is out there mocking me.
Taking jabs and even stabs at me.
I feel so,
forgotten.
So completely forgotten by the one i cannot forget.
Not even for a day.

I know i sound like a childish, immature whiner.
But i am honestly so tired.
I feel like i have really exhausted all my means.
Trying to be happy the way i was.
Each day spent trudging through, doing so many thing.
Going to so many places, yet it all feels like nothing.

When did it become such a huge labyrinth?
What do i want?
Why don't i know anything anymore?
But i guess there is one thing i know.

I know he doesn't want me around.
I just want to know when he needs me so i can be there.
But aside from that, its alright if he is happy.
And it seems to me, he is really happy.

So i guess its back to clock work.
Watching the hands go by.
Time after all waits for no man.

I'm not even sure about what i am writing anymore.